Lilac Woman

by Crusasis

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released November 13, 2013

Written, Recorded, Mastered by Ryan Smith in Bed-Sty and Brickhouse Studios - Summer/Fall 2013
Cover art by Christopher Eustaquio

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Track Name: The Burning Place
I know something that you may not understand
To pick apart the elements, and drive the ghosts straight from our land

Why all fall out, is this life just too much?
Why jump the gun, when the fun's just begun?
Oh sister please, drop your formalities
In the burning place, its all the same so pick apart the sun

Go lie down and take rest, I'm off to live a broken drummers hum
Quiet and lonely, distance is my honey and my gold

And my treasure is in solitude, my bible is the road
My enemy is emptiness, and my tank is running low
Thank god for the angels, that pick apart the sky
They pleasure me, they pleasure us, until the day we die
Track Name: Demands
I don't know what you want, I don't know what you need
But I found something out, something you shouldn't believe
I found out that I lie, so much more than I know
I found out that I hate you, and I wanna make it show

And I'm wondering
Why, oh why, did I give you
everything I ever had?
And I'm wondering, why?

Its not your fault, you're just you, I'm the idiot who followed
Track Name: I Don't Care
I don't care, if I loose everything close to me
I don't care, because it hurts, everything hurts anyway
Even now, playing a song does little for the pain
What caused it, I do not know, but it grows

I'm worthless, when it comes down to it, but not just me, all our kind
Us people, sucking and shedding skin, go back home where you belong

Calling out is always cold
Track Name: Lilac Woman
Lilac woman covered in frost, underneath that stubborn light
Only so many will venture through, caught in the arms of an edible smile

Wont you rule me out of the game?
I don't want to play if she stays here
I'd rather be nurtured by a fountain of god
Quietly sipping while the fog settles in, in the forest at not quiet dawn

And its late spring, early morning
I am alone breathing sweet air, as life begins to wake
at the first wind of the day, passes through my soul
energizing me, electrify the trees, electrify

Lilac woman covered in frost, underneath that stubborn light
Only so many will venture through, caught in the arms of an edible smile

Won't you rule me?
I don't want to play, while she stays here
I'd rather be nurtured by a fountain of god
Quietly sipping, the fog roles in, the forest at dawn
its late spring, early morning, I am alone, breathing sweet air
As life begins to wake
The first wind of the day
Passes through my soul
Track Name: Starchild
I don't know where I'm going, but I found you from the stars
That last night was so special and I know you want it all
Well its all right, cause this life isn't so meaningless
Polished the rest I paid off, in the night woman you're a nightmare

what you waiting for, I got something to say
And the party's over, don't you want to stick around?
I know you sound so great
but your just kissin a little, but you're just so pretty, so little

Hold the line and thats all, 12345678
You know thats right
Track Name: My Life
My life, what can I say?

My life, what can I say bout that
I dont know where I am, I feel lost, I feel dead
Is this real I can't tell, all I know is I'm scared
To be wrong, to be right
To be dark to be light
Oh I hope it ends soon, but its here and I'm doomed
Wheres the right when I'm left
I know my brain is pumpin lead
Its the middle and theres no end, the beginning is all dead
I am sad, I am scarred, I am happy I am weird
Theres the end, I think I'll stand in front of the fire

My life what can I say bout that?
Track Name: Norma Jean
Norma Jean
Time won't separate what we had
Life won't wait

Don't walk away from me
I'm trying to loose my mind at the sound of your name
(Norma)
Don't step away from me
I swear I'll kill any other man who utters your name

Norma Jean
Time won't separate what we share
Life won't wait

Last time I saw you my heart felt like chains and anvils
Will you release me Norma Jean?
I cannot live I swear I tried but my soul continues to drown
Norma!
I scream for your beauty, your honey sweet soul, tangled in this human pain
I want you to hear my screams of anguish, and pet me till I relax
Norma

(nonsense)

Norma Jean
Time won't separate what we share
Time won't wait
Track Name: Swimmer (No Luck)
I don't like to swim but I might with you
I don't like alot of people so don't invite your friends
And if you don't like that, thats just the kind of man I am

Sorry baby the mountain wont change, until its cut down by the wind
And I ain't a leaf, I ain't a river
You ain't a stream, you're just the water bearer

I don't do much cause there ain't much to do
I play a song pass out try and feel good
and to no avail here I am again, naked in my bed, swimming in my head

Here I am again, naked in my bed, fans blowing warm and my sweat is sticking
I'm a raging ocean baby, undertow beneath
and when my head explodes, I thank god for the relief

Goodbye roads and crossing guards, I think I'll stay right where I am
In this place where demons sit with me, and we all laugh
cause we're a happy family
And they never leave even when I want them too
Thats why I need you, to distract me from them

Come on baby right now I need you even when it feels so good
Cause its always hell, even when its raining
and I love the rain but even when its raining
so cry me a stream
cry me a river
I'm all washed up
and I ain't no swimmer
Track Name: Orchard
I don't care where you fall, broken bruised and battle scarred
Its the last thing that I need, you broke up next to me
I'll mend you in the shade, take my shirt off wipe away
You'll be my pretty catch, the one and only until the next

Golden ripe and red delicious, taste just like sick sweetness
I'm full I've had my fill, its time to roll on down that hill
I'm dizzy and seeing stars, wading through murky waters
You left so long ago and now she's here to fill the hole

Maybe yes and maybe so, life is long and the fruit will drop
When times right and we've matured, right as rain pure as pure
Maybe yes and maybe not, seeds will grow, fruit will rot
I loved you once before, and I will love again
Track Name: Holy Mountain
I can't write a song but if I could
I'd bring the mountain down, and thats all that there is
Why win when theres so much to loose
I'd bring the mountain down, and thats all that there is

Holy mountain beneath my wings
This partnership ends, just like everything
Why win when theres so much to loose
Oh well, oh well

I can't fall in love but if I could
I'd bring the mountain down, and thats all that there is
Why win when theres so much to loose
I'd bring the mountain down, and thats all that there is

Holy mountain beneath my wings
This partnership ends, just like everything
Why win when theres so much to loose
Oh well, oh well

Holy mountain within my being
Last night I tasted silver and blood, now whats left
Why does it last, when its all so frail
At last, at last

I can't stay alive but if I could
I'd speak to all of us, and I'd reach the mountain
Why does the light fall, every night
I swear in nighttime I'd stay alive